Category Archives: Observation
Disarmament
If we are to evolve as humans we must dismantle our nuclear weapons systems. But these nuclear weapons was invented to reduce or remove our fear. So evolving as humans MUST be followed by much fear.
The same goes for people.
Acceptance
Acceptance is more than just suppressing the parts of your character that you do not like. Acceptance is: to not make any judgement at all. Huge difference.
If I become conscious that I am harboring negative thoughts, and i make judgement on that, then I am adding to those negative thoughts. I could be thinking, “Oh damn, now I am having those negative thoughts again.” So i have transformed negative thoughts into blame. It is a bad feedback loop.
E.g. I am desperately trying to be happy. This is amplifying it self. I am passing a judgement here. I am not happy, but i should be. Thus I get more unhappy. Because I should be happy, there is something wrong with me.
If I am to transcend this feeling of unhappy I must be just the observer, and not the judge.
Acceptance is about not having any opinion.
Sex is the mother of desire
All ego-form arises from the want to defend your desires. And all desires arise from the need for sex and reproduction. It is the mother of all desires.
Only when an animal must defend it’s right to mate, will you see real aggression towards it’s own species.
That is why all religions disavow sexual pleasures.
Transcending sex and you transcend ego.
Loss
The thought of farewell is not what brings agony or pain it is the fear of reunion that is frightening. The prospect of non-reunion or the fear that the joy of reunion will not be mutual.
Now is safe
I sense that when I am focused in the moment, in the now, all doubt and mental gibberish evaporates.
Conversely when I sense an uncertainty or my thoughts are eradic, I know I am in the past or the future.
The observer
Talking to Louise (who is visiting) about the quietness or the non-thinking.
She says that in the morning she likes to cycle quietly to work. Not thinking and just sensing the city and the fog or the cold. But then after work is over and going home she lets it loose.
Quote: Going home I just let it run wild.
It is so clear to even the uninitiated that there is the observer and thinker. And also, the thinker is clearly not identified as the person, but some “thing” inside us.
Think about that sentence. “I shall let it run wild”.
It could almost not be spelled out more clearly. There it is; the you and the ego.
Loneliness
On Saturday I was finally well enough to get out of bed. (Was sick like a dog for a week from some local Balinese flu virus. They had to call the doctor. Eating pills like candy)
On two separate occasions that day I got this deep feeling of loss, or loneliness that I had felt the day Louise had left to go home again after staying 3 weeks. But it was, on closer introspection, also filled with deep love and tenderness.
Loneliness it seems is love that has been orphaned.
We all know that it is possible to have the feeling of loneliness even when we are together with lots of people. Being with other people has got nothing to do with the emotion of loneliness.
Loneliness arises when you have much love inside you that has no channel to pass through.
Some may also think that love that is channelled must be reciprocated by somebody else. But that is not so. Only the ego requires this. You can love without being loved back. In fact you would be well advice to not set a criterion for loving.
Re-examine core beliefs
After re-examining core beliefs:
The question of who we are, is bigger then the question on what life is about. But one on who and not what, seems to be more finite in nature.
On initial investigation I can say with certainty that I am not the thoughts in my head. My true nature does not think in terms of logic or words.
In modern terms I would say i am a motherboard in a giant distributed network of computers. I am part of a supercomputer on which runs Karma. I am not the (whole) computer, and yet i have the option to change the software that runs on me. And more importantly I have the ability to change what is running on the neighboring hardware as well. (good deeds and loving kindness). This is vital to understand, because that, by way of next of kin, grants me access to change all software running. Like a benign virus.
Nobody or somebody?
It’s when you fully realize that you are nobody, that you truly start to become someone.
Say hi to your self
Say goodbye to your self, because this insight will transform you without a doubt, if you allow it.
Say hi to your self.
“Oh how glad I am that you came! I was so in need of your help. I have been so much in doubt about many things. Just seeing you makes me want to cry from joy.”