Ego-life is hidden from our awareness, because the untrained can only be self conscious for shorter periods of time. It is very trying for most people.

This is so because the ego believes that if your “being” was to take control of your life, your existence would be threatened. And on some level this may be correct. It would change you. And maybe you would not be able to command the necessary level of cynicism required to negotiate the contracts you normally do. You might get fired or your commission might go down.

But the fact is you would survive, you would probably just negotiate in a totally different manner. And maybe you would not be able to get the same contracts, but then you would probably be remembered for being such a loving person, and you might get some totally other contracts you just couldn’t get before, because you were such an idiot in the eyes of your peers. And your family might love you in a totally different way.